Summertime has come upon us.
I got my B's. I knew they were coming. Inevitable.
I didn't cry, though. Not that bad. I deserved them. It was ok.
Time has been spent ideally since I've gotten home from college.
A trip was instantly taken (the day after my last exam) to Chattanooga to visit my old dear redheaded girl pal. We saw a Shinedown concert and traipsed around the city by foot. Chattanooga is such a lovely place, especially in the warm sunny summer.
Time has been spent seeing old friends (barn party was Monday, dam party was Wednesday), my newly reclaimed boyfriend (traveling from B-wood to C-boro and back numerous times), and dear college friends (even if only for thirty minute increments in a Starbucks parking lot to exchange letters written).
It is good to be home.
Good to be near a stove on which I can whip up some whole-wheat chocolate chip pancakes.
Good to have a big, spacious room of my very own.
Good to have a walk-in closet with a rack that will fit my dress collection.
Good to have roads to run on, trees to admire, birds to listen to, a screened-in porch to eat breakfast on.
And as of yesterday, I am employed for the summer!
Good times.
Good summer.
I love Tennessee. So much.
I love the trees, I love the seasons, I love the birds, I love the hills, I love the people, I love the accents, I love the friendliness, I love it all.
I am lucky to have grown up here.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
so close i can almost taste it
tearing down the room.
taking down the dresses.
no more white paper chain on the door.
no more caitlyn painting above my twin XL bed.
the picture frames have been placed away.
gum wrappers discarded.
purse upon purse and shoe upon shoe tucked tightly into a plastic sterilite tub.
books packed into sturdy bags to be carried to the book buyback people tomorrow afternoon.
movie ticket stubs and business cards haphazardly thrown here and there among my paper goods.
the time has come to move out of thrailkill hall.
no more lucy-and-desi beds. no more cityscape view.
no more passive-aggressive bitch suitemate.
yep, i'm not thinking i'm going to miss this place all that much.
i'll miss the sense of community (the dormitory attribute i yearned so longingly for all last year).
i'll miss the proximity of living near my college best-friend.
i'll miss the abundance of phi kappa tau boys always in the lobby.
but that's about it.
time has come for change. and change shall come.
moving back home.
time to start anew again.
a chance to make home a haven, someplace welcoming but not binding.
a chance to improve the relationships i have with my parents.
a chance to nurture the relationships i have with old friends from home.
a chance to nurture the relationships i have with new friends within visitation proximity.
a chance to exhibit growth and maturity.
a chance to develop good habits and keep them.
let's not blow those chances, please.
things i want to accomplish this summer:
1. UNPACK AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! keep room at home tidy and calming. get rid of things with bad karma. discard clutter.
2. read Anne of Green Gables under a shade tree.
3. go running regularly.
4. walk regularly.
5. take advantage of the cumberland trail regularly.
6. stay supersocial.
7. make a decision about majors and minors.
8. throw eleni a wedding shower.
9. contribute to the step-show choreography of my first sorority, phi beta theta delta kappa mu.
10. develop a positive relationship with food, eating, and my body.
11. get a really amazing tan.
12. make significant money.
13. write letters.
14. find myself.
15. attempt a committed relationship. again.
16. road trip.
17. be a better friend.
18. be a better sister.
19. brainstorm socials for the fall. and ideas for yellow rose.
20. get laptop fixed.
21. dance. a LOT.
22. play tennis.
23. play, in general.
24. love.
25. live.
26. feel alive.
27. be aware.
28. learn to cook.
29. sleep.
30. find happiness and peace.
today was stressful.
last day of interning.
american political institution exam.
followed by spanish exam.
returned mel j's skates.
was reimbursed for parking at work.
went for a few hours' worth of a walk.
took a short nap.
oh, life.
i think my overwhelming theme for the summer is going to be awareness.
last summer i focused on feeling alive. running helped that.
easter break's emphasis was on being a better friend.
this summer, i'm going to be aware.
aware of life, aware of my future, aware of my actions, aware of people's perception of me, aware of my perception of me, aware of my body, aware of my words, aware of my motives, aware of my physical presence, and aware of the world around me.
all my life i want to strive to be a better person and to make everything i do intentional.
i know it's a little lofty, but it's a good goal.
taking down the dresses.
no more white paper chain on the door.
no more caitlyn painting above my twin XL bed.
the picture frames have been placed away.
gum wrappers discarded.
purse upon purse and shoe upon shoe tucked tightly into a plastic sterilite tub.
books packed into sturdy bags to be carried to the book buyback people tomorrow afternoon.
movie ticket stubs and business cards haphazardly thrown here and there among my paper goods.
the time has come to move out of thrailkill hall.
no more lucy-and-desi beds. no more cityscape view.
no more passive-aggressive bitch suitemate.
yep, i'm not thinking i'm going to miss this place all that much.
i'll miss the sense of community (the dormitory attribute i yearned so longingly for all last year).
i'll miss the proximity of living near my college best-friend.
i'll miss the abundance of phi kappa tau boys always in the lobby.
but that's about it.
time has come for change. and change shall come.
moving back home.
time to start anew again.
a chance to make home a haven, someplace welcoming but not binding.
a chance to improve the relationships i have with my parents.
a chance to nurture the relationships i have with old friends from home.
a chance to nurture the relationships i have with new friends within visitation proximity.
a chance to exhibit growth and maturity.
a chance to develop good habits and keep them.
let's not blow those chances, please.
things i want to accomplish this summer:
1. UNPACK AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! keep room at home tidy and calming. get rid of things with bad karma. discard clutter.
2. read Anne of Green Gables under a shade tree.
3. go running regularly.
4. walk regularly.
5. take advantage of the cumberland trail regularly.
6. stay supersocial.
7. make a decision about majors and minors.
8. throw eleni a wedding shower.
9. contribute to the step-show choreography of my first sorority, phi beta theta delta kappa mu.
10. develop a positive relationship with food, eating, and my body.
11. get a really amazing tan.
12. make significant money.
13. write letters.
14. find myself.
15. attempt a committed relationship. again.
16. road trip.
17. be a better friend.
18. be a better sister.
19. brainstorm socials for the fall. and ideas for yellow rose.
20. get laptop fixed.
21. dance. a LOT.
22. play tennis.
23. play, in general.
24. love.
25. live.
26. feel alive.
27. be aware.
28. learn to cook.
29. sleep.
30. find happiness and peace.
today was stressful.
last day of interning.
american political institution exam.
followed by spanish exam.
returned mel j's skates.
was reimbursed for parking at work.
went for a few hours' worth of a walk.
took a short nap.
oh, life.
i think my overwhelming theme for the summer is going to be awareness.
last summer i focused on feeling alive. running helped that.
easter break's emphasis was on being a better friend.
this summer, i'm going to be aware.
aware of life, aware of my future, aware of my actions, aware of people's perception of me, aware of my perception of me, aware of my body, aware of my words, aware of my motives, aware of my physical presence, and aware of the world around me.
all my life i want to strive to be a better person and to make everything i do intentional.
i know it's a little lofty, but it's a good goal.
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